So I thought that maybe I jinxed myself by talking about doing p90x on day one; therefore, I waited until I was a week into it to start talking about it. I'm on p90x day 10. I actually typed out everyday and what the schedule is so I can see the visual of crossing items off the list. I just did core tonight and feel great. I am once again determined to do this; especially since I have a Christmas surprise for my hubby and want to look my best! I'm glad I pushed play tonight, because it is quite late and I really didn't want to do it when I looked around the house and saw all the other things that need to get done =( Taking time for my health and my self esteem is important and I need to keep that thought in mind!!
Now my problem once again is eating AWFUL. I really don't know why I do it when I think about how stupid it is to eat something right before and during the eating. I also find that I tend to do great before lunch and then it all goes to hell. For example I will have a bowl of cereal for breakfast, yogurt for a snack and then something small for lunch. At dinnertime, however, I pig out. I will have say 2 slices of pizza and 3 cookies and a pink lemonade. I don't know why I can't put down the junk.
Josh keeps talking about getting pregnant again and I'm just not ready yet. I do want more kids I just don't feel like I do right now. There are two three main reasons for this. One, I have a houseful of kids all day so it doesn't feel like there is room for a baby. Two, I want to be skinny and healthy. And finally, three, I don't want to have done all this work getting fit only to have my body go to hell again =( Plus I'm lonely here; at least for adult conversations. Josh works 6 - 10 plus overtime so he is gone from the house from approximately 5pm - 5am. He comes home relaxes for a little and is in bed by 6am. I wake up around 6 - 6:30 and kids start arriving around 7:30. Then Josh wakes up for work at 4:30pm; gets ready comes downstairs at about 4:50pm and is out the door on the way to work by 5:10pm... I NEVER see him unless it is his day off and then it's only from around 4pm until I go to bed. That seems like a long time but really I only get grown up time from around 9pm until I go to sleep which is usually no later than 11; although on his days off I tend to stay up later even though I will be really tired and cranky the next day (trust me not a good thing when I have between 4 and 6 kids here all day).
