well I quit drinking soda the other day, and I'm surprised I've been able to do it so far. It's been four days of merciless headaches plus I've had I really stiff neck all week. Blah... at least I managed to give Addison a bath and get her to take and nap, and I got to shower too!

Grad School

So I've been thinking about going back to school for quite some time now. I am pretty convinced that I'm going to bite the bullet and go back for teaching. I really wanted to do Library Science, but, there are no programs offered for that up this way, and the online ones I've found are really expensive. I just can't imagine going $40,000 into debt when we already have enough. SUNY Potsdam is just 30-40 minutes from here and it offers an MST in Social Studies Adolescence Education. And, being a state school, it's alot cheaper, about $20,000 (both $$ amounts are estimates not including any scholarships or financial aid). The only problem is they only accept new students into the program during the summer semester! I wish I had known this and I might have started a few months ago, although summer semester starts in the end of May. While that is further away then I would like, it does provide time to save up money to help pay for the program and Kellen won't be as needy in a few months either. I'm not sure I can really picture myself being a teacher, but, alot of people that I went to high school with are teachers that I can't picture doing that either. Basically, I really want a good job, that makes money and teachers have summers, holidays, and weekends off. I go stir crazy being a stay at home mom, and I'm sick of living paycheck to paycheck where having a good job will obsolve us of that problem and also allow us to actually save money and pay off our current debt! I'm hoping that once I get into the program I would come to enjoy it even though I'm not sure that I would. Mostly I'm worried that I won't be a great teacher and that I won't know enough about the subject matter to be confedent. But, my brother and his girlfriend made some good points, mentioning that just going over the materials the day before you teach them helps alot and also, if someone asks a question you don't know the answer to it's not a big deal to tell them you will find out the answer within a couple of days. The biggest issue holding me back is lack of confidence in my ability. Anyway, I'm pretty sure I'm going to do it.

Land...

I think we have finally decided that we will not be looking for or buying a different house. We are planning on finding land in a great location and building our dream house. I think his heart is set on living much closer to work, which, I can completely understand. This makes my heart completely set on living in the Waddington area. My feeling are: 1. Waddington is a nice little town where people really seem to take pride in their homes and community. 2. It has an awesome paved path for walking/jogging along the St. Lawrence river. 4. Maybe we can buy some land on the river! 3. It is in between where he works now and where we grew up. This means if he ever did transfer to the Ogdensburg station he wouldn't be far from there either. And, I can still see my family all the time, although it would take more planning than it does now. My only real conserns with Waddington are: 1. It is 30 minutes from groceries/walmart unless you count the small grocery there that is most likely expensive and lacking in variety. 2. It is 30 minutes from my family =(

Teething...

It's offical, Kellen has been teething for over a month now, and it's getting worse. He won't nap anymore and it is harder and harder to get him to eat; he just wants to chew things!